GOD IS SO GOOD!
I (unofficially) got offered a float nurse position at Rush Oak Park Hospital today and I’m crying a hundred times harder out of joy than I ever did out of despair about not having a job!!! I can’t handle these emotions right now!
It just makes me realize…it was so hard to feel blessed this past six months. I KNOW I am in my heart, I have shelter, food, and incredible friends, family, and husband. But now, seeing the love and the joy nearly equal to my own of my friends. I can’t contain it. I can’t deal with my joy right now! It’s so easy to feel distant and removed from you guys either in Grand Rapids or on the East side but when things really get hard you are all right there and I am SO BLESSED. God has given me an INCREDIBLE family of relatives and friends and I just LOVE you all more than you can possibly wrap your head around. God has taught me how to trust. That if he’s first nothing else matters. Even if you eat oatmeal all week. : )
I’ve overcome.
I got to the hospital early and was sitting in my car freaking out and I heard this song by Josh Wilson called “Savior, please.” So good. SO SO good. It’s the perfect prayer. I don’t know if you all feel God through music the way I do, but it brings me to tears every time. Even if you don’t usually read lyrics on here, read these:
Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don’t know how long I’ll last
I try to be so tough
But I’m just not strong enough
I can’t do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I’m nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me
Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You’re all I have
Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I’ll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don’t have to prove a thing
‘Cause You’re the one who’s saving me
I gues what I’m trying to say is THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU all for your prayers and encouragement and thoughts. You have absolutely no idea what it has meant to me and I KNOW I couldn’t have stayed this positive without all of you. You are INCREDIBLE!!!
So to all you up there, and everyone else that isn’t in there, I love you all, infinitely. : )
